Apology

Hi everyone, sorry for not posting in so long. These blog posts take a lot of emotional energy which I just haven't had recently. I've also noticed that my blog is so negative, basically because I've used it as a space to bitch about having cancer, so I'm going to post more positive pieces now. Of course I'll still talk about the emotional issues connected to surviving cancer, but mixed with more practical advice and good news.

This good news starts with the Bone Cancer Research Trust calendar shoot I was part of on Sunday. 

It was simply amazing. It was exactly what I needed, what I think I've always needed. I met people like me, I met people who understood, and it was better than I had ever dreamed. We discussed how things made us feel and other people's reactions to us, and I felt like I was part of a group and not alone. As my previous posts have explained, one of the hardest things is the loneliness such a rare disease causes, and suddenly on Sunday I was standing in a room with seven people like me. I feel like Sunday healed me just as much as the year and a half of therapy, without a doubt. I'm still in awe of the whole day, and all the people I met. They all had such inspiring stories and were truly lovely people. Hearing them speak about their treatment was so strange because we all had quite similar stories, and I'd never heard someone tell me their's. It's really put things in perspective for me, and I feel like I really need to make something of myself out of respect for those whom bone cancer has taken.

Sophie xo